Thursday, December 24, 2009

update

so many things happened in our life..... first thing first... kenduri adik went well... alhamdulilah... now tunggu turn kenduri di perak aje on this sunday....

imad dah dpt surat penempatan ke sekolah.. tapi itupun setelah saya call pejabat pelajaran gombak....the rest mr. ayah yg settlekan... yg pelik tu imad will be on trial for 3 months and after that baru diorang evaluate either imad leh terus school kat situ or kena gi PDK.... the nearest PDK is Ulu Klang....

imad's lung test and ENT visit also done.... but he still can't do the proper test for lungs... he needs to try again next visit.....now i need to train him to blow, for him to do the proper test next time.... he also got his appt for dental in April... quite long... but i think it is because of the steroid and also the lung test report....

and me still on my confius, unsecured feeling... sometimes i feel that i need to sacrifice for imad.... let say if he needs to go to PDK... i need to be with him more often...and furthermore the hospital appt pun makin rancak.... but in other hand i rasa unsecured and rasa down coz realizing i have no income anymore... i used to be independent wife and mommy.... all the children needs were in my hand, mr. ayah tak payah nak pening... or i tak payah nak explain lebih2 to mr. ayah or i tak payah nak masam2 muka ngan mr. ayah... but now everything are in his responsibilities....and being me... i rasa sometimes he cant cope tapi i nih pun satu... baru nak try dah rasa unsecured... he always said to me... we try first... if we didn't try, mcm mana nak tau.... dilemma la...
saya cuba untuk menerima keadaan ini, cuba untuk redha dan redakan perasaan... tapi.... byk la sebab2 untuk saya berfikiran begini.....
i wanna be with imad... but i need to have an income...i dont want to be dependent to mr. ayah.... knowing him...i hate to be one... huhuhuhu
macam mana nak pasrah eh?????

3 comments:

RiMa said...

kakakku...
I really wish you all the prosper in life.. I know that Allah will help u in any way, since you lagi alim compared to me.. hehehe.. but I believe Allah has a beautiful plan for each of us, including u and ur fams..
maybe u can do MLM or some kind of work yg u can do from home.. =)

Eta said...

wakakakaka... saya bukan biz minded adik....
sgt2 bukan...

RiMa said...

hehehehe.... takpe kak... u'll get used to it.. and perhaps it will be the best job that u will ever have in ur life.. huehuehue...

so how're you? how's things going on? miss u so much! T_T